I'm so sorry to hear about your great grandma. Our hearts are with you. Rosiesmom said it so beautifully. What are some of your favourite memories of your great grandma? We'd love to get to know the wonderful woman she was... Here for you,
I am so sorry to hear about the loss of your great grandma. I know how difficult these losses are as I've lost three loved ones within the last few months. I have found that by thinking of all the wonderful things about these people, that instead of feeling sorry for myself and my loss that I can honor their lives and keep their spirits alive in my heart. Loss and memories can either defeat us or lighten our hearts and it is up to us what we choose to do with them. Death is a natural part of life and we should try not to fear it. Rejoice in the fact that you had your great grandma in your life for a long time and know that she will always be with you. Take care of yourself and try to be mindful of the kind of energy you live your life with. Stick to the program and keep on sharing with the support group and I know you will learn that life doesn't have to be so dark, so black or white, all or nothing. Look for the grey and embrace what you what you can do now and that each day you will be able to do more. In my thoughts and prayers,
Sadly yesterday morning my great grandma passed away. So lately I have not been doing to good. Was hard enough about my friend and not getting the house and now this.
I'm posting a lot because it helps me a little Bit just by saying some things.
Well doesn't look like I will be getting the house. The people want me to get a co signer for it too and I don't want to put that much pressure on someone. And my friends d ( the person that is the cause of this) and i are truing to work things out but I feel it's going nowhere. So nothing seems to be moving forward for me. And just after my doctors appointment i have had a lot of suicidal thought. For about 2 weeks. I went to my doctor again for my other appointment and he brought my Presciption up to 20mg celexa.
Well this weekend I felt pretty good. I might be buying a house soon which idk if it is a good idea yet because I'm just starting with these pills and i dont know if i will get side effects. So far it's good and i feel alright. Still have times that I feel really down but not as much. But what I thought was weird is that before I could never sleep away from home. Like in a hotel. But this weekend I actually slept through the night at the hotel I stayed in. Left town for my sisters university graduation. But now i am home and gonna see how it goes.
Good for you! I know it's hard to comprehend but I am sure that little by little you will begin to get joy and happiness back into your life. Again, the fact that you are 20 and seeking help now is such a positive and I believe that in sharing your journey you can inspire others.
Today I went for a long 20km walk. Was nice and relaxing. Had to head home cause it was getting dark and also I was afraid that I may meet some of nature's wildlife on my way. But it was a good walk, just played my music and kept everything off my mind.
I don't think it's the celexa because i just started taking it 5 days ago and it is a really low dose. 10mg. And i also dont think it is because all weekend and some of Monday i was having really bad thoughts. So im thinking that it's either just the seroquel that helped a bit today or i just had somemewhat a good day. If I'd call it that... but can always hope that both pills are starting to help. And i havent completed any of the sessions on the site. Been a little ti sad to do them so I was trying to do things that I knew that made me happy before. I'll be having a few days off to go to my sister graduation so i might be able to start them during that time.
It sounds as though the medication my be beginning to work....let's hope so. Have you completed any of the sessions? I found the thought record very useful in forming an association between my mood and my thoughts.
Hello Linda,
I do have trusted friends but I don't like talking about it with them cause i fear that they may think different of me or bring up the persons name or events that remind me of the reason why I am like this. I have only told about 3 or 4 of my trusted friends. And my mom and my sister know I am taking anti depressants. I don't even like talking about problems with my family. I don't want them to worry about me cause I feel it will just make things worse.
Anyways today was probably the first day within the past week or 2 that i didnt have bad thoughts. I was still able to work. Still had thoughts that brought me down but it was somewhat controllable. But i still don't feel happy about anything.
