Well, I am about to start on what I've come to think of as the second part of my quit.
The "getting in shape and loosing some weight" part.
Holy crap is this going to be hard.
Holy crap is this going to suck.
Holy crap could this be any more EXACTLY like quitting smoking??!! :p
I would not expect any of you to remember, but back when I first joined this site I mentioned that I was quitting smoking for several reasons, not the least of which was health problems.
As a quick recap for those of you just joining our broadcast...
I'm 36 years old. I started having the health problems of an 80 year old. Swollen feet and legs, chest pains, general weakness, joint pain.
I've become a blob. I'd come home from work, sit eat and smoke. All night. That's it.
I put on 70 pounds in 5 years.
I think if I don't make a change, I will be dead within a few years.
Seriously.
I just found out I have sleep apnea, and have begun treatment for that. Hopefully, that will at least allow me to soon get a decent nights sleep.
Now for the weight and excercise issues.
Holy crap is this going to suck.
I'm realizing just how much this is an addiction to NOT being well.
So I went last night for my first visit with a personal trainer.
I will begin a training routine with him 2 times per week for an hour. He wants to start me out very easy, as he understands what a complete slug I have become.
I HATE HATE and an embarrased by the fact that I can barely make it 15 minutes walking on a treadmil. That is STUPID.
It was pouring down rain in a horrendous thunderstorm last night as I was driving to the appointment.
I started thinking 'Man this is crazy. Weather Service is issuing all kinds of warnings. Hey! I could call him and cancel! That's a PERFECTLY valid excuse.' Then I stopped. Wow, how EXACTLY like our smoking thinking is that?!!
That really hit home to me. I'm currently addicted to eating horribly, to not excercising. I was running through ALL the same types of thinking that I've had about smoking. Reasons why I shouldn't try. Reasons why it will be hard.. too hard for ME to accomplish.
I have to do this. I HAVE TO DO THIS.
I have to approach this like quitting smoking. Motivational thinking. Inspiration. Acceptan
