Hello all,
I am having quite the time thinking about the fact that I have to "attempt" to go back to work on Tuesday. I have not been there since Mid December. My biggest challenge is what happens in my head. Even when relaxed, like right now, I find that when I am even doing daily activities for short time I get brain fog, inability to think, a tight band around my head, poor memory and recall. I find that my brain if exposed to anything even remotely stressful just "shuts down." It's scary. I feel like I have made alot of progress. I know this because I add up all the baby steps and see where I am now from where I was in December. But still, even right now I am having serious issues concentrating. Going for a walk which normally would help me in the past, causes this. I just feel very alone and very frustrated. I have been working so hard!!!! Its like a fight and I have to go back to work to support my kids but don't think I am ready and I don't know what to do...
As with my meds, I have been on Zoloft for 9 years at 50 mg. My doctor wants to change this. He gave me the option to change or try increasing the zoloft. Remembering all of the side effects of going on meds, I chose to increase. It's not helping. Now I face changing meds and I don't know what to expect. What are others experiences with changing meds??? Do they taper you off one and put you on another?? Do you just switch??? Are the side effects better because you were all ready on meds??? I don't even know what meds my doctor would put me on. Have others had successes switching over without much disruption? What meds have people found to be successful?? Specificially, when switching off Zoloft...
I also take ativan and have found out the hard way that I am addicted to my night time pill. That scares me.....I am authorized up to 3 mg per day but generally only take 1-2 mg.. The rest of the time I work at it myself.
I am starting a 14 week GAD group this upcoming Thursday. I am hoping it will help. The thing is, I know that cognitive behaviour therapy is quite effective. I use it every day as it is to get through! However, this mind fuzziness. What I described above...What causes that? Why?
I just feel quite low today. I am trying to be good to myself. I am trying to be positive and keep busy. I just don't feel good and fear this will never end. It's so scary and when you feel ok you see the light. But when a low hit, its almost like you can't remember the light anymore....
Thanks,
Carmen