I was diagnosed with panic disorder about a month ago.
The past 2 weeks however,were great. I felt "normal". But that didn't last. Lastnight I woke up from a disturbing dream & sure enough,I had a setback. So bad in fact,that here I am at 5:52am,sitting at my pc because I can't even sleep. I have these thoughts that I'm going to go insane. That eventually,I'll just forget who I am & end up in a nut house. The reason I can't sleep,is because as soon as I fall asleep,even for a minute,These thoughts of going crazy actually wake me up,in fear! I don't even really fear having a panic attack (Not that they aren't scary),but it's the actual thoughts that make me feel anxiety. If I could supress the thoughts,I'd be fine. I don't know what to do. I'm sitting here right now,jittery & anxious. I'm trying hard to convince myself that this is just part of the anxiety disorder,that I'm not crazy. But,I'm having trouble convincing myself of that. I don't know what to do. Praying works,but not right at this moment. I need some sleep. I feel as if my anxiety is unique to everybody elses & that I'm slipping away.
