Well, last night i sat in the bedroom on my own and i started to write and write and write i wrote down every thing that i have been meaning to say for months,just resaponses to hurtfull little comments and things like that i felt a little better after and i gave it to him to read, he couldnt believe how much worse it was, felt better after. Im asking my doctor later if i can see a councellor because i feel like it would maybe help me.I always put on a brave face and tell things from an outsiders view so as i dont show how i really feel. People at work are upsetting me at the moment because theres one girl who had post natal depression and judges everything to her experience which is completley different to me but she is always right i dont even bother to argue anymore i dont have the energy but others seem to think i am jumping on the bandwagon which is why i have stayed at work but i cant do it anymore its a horrible atmousphere and i need time alone in the day with my thoughts so i can freak out if i want with no one around.i like my job and the people here theres inly 8 of us so its nice most of the time but i feel like theyre all staring at me and saying things behind my back...take last week for example i interupted someone really badly (i never do this) and everyone just stopped and looked at me absolutley horrified like i was completley insane, i didnt know what i had done untill someone told me i couldve died there and then and now its all thats talked about with snotty little commentsa, i know that they dont mean it nasty but its the waythat im seeing these comments at the moment.