Hi Sunny and Carmie,
Hot showers and baths DO help, I love the flowing water on me. Today I am very anxious, I think its because I had very bad dreams and then drank two cups of coffee, I know very bad! to wake up now I am paying for it, coffee is not good for someone like me, one weak cup, but not two regular ones, it will wear off, I just hate waking up all shaky from those dreams.
I found a program on television, I think its the "church channel" its called "REFLECTIONS" its so peaceful and serene, it plays soft soothing gospel music and shows nature scenes, sunsets, sunrises, waterfalls, rivers, etc.... have you ever seen it? it helps, I still have too take the klonopin through, a low dose it does help through I wish I did not have too take it at all. oh well!
I am just hoping and praying that I can muster the strength and energy for Christmas for my family, I love Christmas, through Easter is my favorite, I want to go too church and see the alter all decorated and the grotto and prayer chapel, but I am so nervous about going, why I wonder? its such a beautiful place? I am working on the agorophobia now and heath anxiety, I am so grateful the panic's are almost gone, through it comes close sometimes, I guess its going too take more time, I am yelling STOP when I get those thoughts concerning sickness and death, and I try to distract. You guys have been great, thank you!