Hi Guys, I have started a part-time job where my brother works and also my mother in law started there opposite me as well which is nice if you tend to panic well obviously I been very anxious about it as not worked for 3 years due to mega panic attacks everyday at work, have really enjoyed doing my own thing from home but bills going up mean I have to work now, well I am enjoying the job just in local depart store did'nt want to go back to office but recently I have been feeling nervous about going as I am scared I gonna go of on one at work. Well yesterday I suddenly felt hot prob was warm and rushing around but went mega hot and started feeling myself going all funny numb and faint so immediately ran of shop floor and hide in the stock room away from everyone the sweat was horrible could'nt cool my self down I do tend to sweat a bit when I get like this, I felt for shure I was going to faint on my own in there, my eyes were blurry, started feeling numb and really faint, obviously I know I was panic about it by this time but was getting hotter and hotter, I hide in there for about half hour got up felt funny sat down on floor again, don't know what happened really freaked me not had anything ike that for years really get numb and funny head and sweat when nervous but thats was horrible. I feel really tired today been do lots of extra hours although only work 4 hours 3 afternoons a week been doing some full days and extra afternoon shifts, my Hubby has been really ill with some sort of virus and obviously down a lot in money for bills so that worrying me but not to the extent I thought it would make me like this, also my Dad going in for operation and he has bad heart and I don't want him to have it and hosiptal is instant freak out for me even being near them, Doctors the same Im bouning of the walls if I have to go there, freaked waiting for my Hubby there in the car the other day. I feel so stupid and scared that this is happening again, how am I ever going to have a baby and I am 34 now. Whats wrong with me.
