I am the kind of person that mainly panics or has very bad anxiety when I am ill or injured. I just injured my leg the other day (I had surgery in the past to keep it from dislocating), but my dog popped it out again. The doctor says that it is not likely that I will need surgery again, as the joint still seems pretty strong. Anyway the doctor is scheduling an MRI in the next week or so, just for my peace of mind!
So here I go again...I am struggling to sleep, I feel neither awake or asleep, as nonsense thoughts roam my head. Then I wake up in the morning to vomiting and fighting to keep my meds. down. I shake violently as my blood pressure soars to the passing out point. So I am afraid to get out of bed. Starting my days seem impossible and once again I am afraid of my shower (who knows why!!!) My fingers and toes go numb from cold sweats. I just generally feel sick all over and I am not hardly in any pain at all, so it is not from that.
...and what does this all have to do with my knee?...I just went through all this in January when I was sick with pneumonia. Why when I am sick or injured? It's like my body and mind get all messed up.
Does anyone else suffer with this?...I feel alone...which frightens me more. And being home alone is making it worse... How does one deal with such disturbing feelings in their body? I just stay in bed and then become more anxious that I am wasting my life away. Nothing seems to be helping... My therapist is trying to help me identify that which I am afraid of. All I have to tell her is the feelings in my body!!! :confuse: Another setback and I am fighting it!
Sorry for my rambling and thanks all for listening.
