Ahh so i am feeling down on my self again as i posted here and said i had the goal of no alcohol and here i am again after a night of drinking . hung over with shame and all that comes . I so badly want to break this cycle but keep falling into it . i do recognise that i need tools to help with my anxiety as that is a big reason for my drinking in the past and why i switched to eating as i don't drink when i am at home but only at my family's . And its not them i mean they do say im fine and just have a drink but i could say no and dont . so i guess i will work on coping skills for anxiety and also work on saying no thanks ...but its hard to be around people who are drinking for many reasons . i dont know why i put myself through this .
