Hi ND!
Congratulations on day two! I always find the first few weeks to be the most difficult and where you need to be really mindful of all triggers.
The whole July thing is really interesting. I’m wondering if you’ve dissected your history to see if there are correlations to any emotional or traumatic events in your past that occurred in July. Could be the worst or best times in your life, certainly something that is roaming in your subconscious.
Normal/Abnormal drinker debate has many definitions. Some claim you’re abnormal if you can’t stop once you’ve had that first drink. Other’s claim that, if you’ve had a couple of drinks and are satisfied with that, you’re normal. Well, I’ve had a couple and didn’t want more plus I can stop after having just one. The “not normal” part for me is that I’ll get a bottle of wine and plan to drink the whole thing by myself all alone. It’s the whole planning to get drunk, making sure I have enough booze to get drunk and planning my time so that I won’t be interrupted during my drunk. I believe the “not normal” aspect of drinking is individualized and very personal. Although we share similarities, we all have our own mo.
I have noticed something that we all do share, is the many creative ways we try to moderate. Moderating is in my opinion, exhausting and frustrating. So frustrating in fact that I believe it exacerbates a binge. You’re always thinking about drinking whereas if you decide to abstain, you only think about it when a trigger presents itself. Although, for some of us that could still mean we’re always thinking about drinking lol.
I’d be interested in hearing what others on this forum believe to be what a “normal” drinker is.
T.S.