Hi Crystal.
I have been through this too.
Though I am a male and never been through child birth, I have had plenty of anxiety and panic issues that revolved around OCD.
I tried to get off meds, but was only successful in getting off one of them.
Now I have retooled and am trying just one med and valium.
I was OK for about 8 days and then once I got back into stressful situations, some anxiety returned.
I am not feeling full myself right now. Some dissociation is going on. I too have the blah blah feeling and did not want to accept what was going on.
All I can say is explore every option. It may take some time to feel fully like yourself as is the case with me. But never stop trying.
I hope you feel better,
David
