I had to dig this old one up. Because today I was thinking, what has changed in this past year?
I still get the odd mild crave, (like yesterday, when shopping.)Yes that junkie never seems to give up, he's a pathetic little whimp now but he still tries with a "Wanna smoke?"
But he is much easier to blow off now, with a deep breath and a "Not on your life! NOPE!"
The price to pay, is just too high to go back there!
I am calmer, I am mellower, I can breathe and I am so much more healthy! My children and Hubby are still blown away that I actually quit - after 703 times.(LOL)
I am also more emotional. My emotions are right under the surface, rather than burried under several thousand layers of old smoke!
I like that I can feel them now, instead of running to smoke and hide them, like I used to do.
Would I go back? Not a chance! The freedom is so worth all the stuff we went through the first few weeks.
I know I am an addict. I know I can never go back.
I know that I never want to go back. And I know I will always have to remember NOPE!
The new me, is a calmer, wiser, and oh yes, smarter version of me than before. And the good old me is here too, the happy go lucky one!
:)
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B]3/5/2007
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 363
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 9,075
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $3,829.65
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 47 [B]Hrs:[/B] 15 [B]Mins:[/B] 58 [B]Seconds:[/B] 40