One minute everything is fine, and then the next it's falling apart. As soon as i start to feel like i can live a normal life, my mind starts with the games. I'm so tired of the anxiety now. And i dont want this to be a sob story and i'm not writing this because i want sympathy or anything, i just need to talk about it. Noone seems to listen, and because i was panic free for a few months people around me seem to think that i'm being stupid for panicing now. And yeah, they're right, but i am trying to take control. I'm trying to stay on top of things.. It's just getting so hard, and i cant help but let all this anxiety get to me, drag me down and allow me to lock myself away again.
I'm tired of the struggle, of the fight. Just want to be the person i was before all of this. Sorry for being depressing, just gets hard sometimes..
Sarah x
