Hi Trish-well, it's been exactly 5 weeks since I have driven. I never, ever used to get panic attacks while driving until recently when I had to start driving to a city 35 minutes away twice a week for school. I was really nervous because it's all highway, no hospitals along the way and in some places nowhere you can turn around. If something happened half way there, I'd be stuck and have to drive either back or go on stuck in a mass panic! Just talking about it actually starts to make me feel panicky!
I was fine the first few times and then one day, I suddenly had a panic attack on the road. It was awful, I was going all cold and felt like i was going to pass out for sure! My heart raced out of control and I just tried to focus on keeping the car on the road. I wondered if I should call 911 on my cell but I didn't. By the time I got to the hospital ( I was doing my practicum there- I was a nursing student) I thought, ok I'm at the safest place now if anything happens. My attack didn't stop though and I actually ended up going to the ER after having the attack for a couple of hours. Nothing would make it stop. I had to call my mom to pick me up and I left my car there. That attack exhausted me for days. I couldn't eat or sleep and I was terrified. The next week I tried to go back to the hospital for my practicum. As soon as I got to the part where I could not turn around, I got this huge rush of adrenaline, and again my heart was pounding and I had to focus so hard to keep my car ont he road. I turned around anyway and drove home, somehow.
I never had a problem driving my city, until a week later when I was driving up a backroad to my parents house-A road I drove at least 5 times a week. It suddenly occured to me that I could not easily turn around on this road, it was so narrow and again I got that awful adrenaline rush and same thing- I turned the car around anyway and had the worst drive ever back to my apartment. When I got stuck at a stoplight, I truly thought I would die there. It was so, so terrifying I swore I would never drive again. And I haven't. From there, I went into a downward spiral of agoraphobia, severe anxiety and depression. I was scared to even be in the car when someone else was driving.
Now that I have finally given into taking medi