I think each time I tried to quit, it was for everyone or everything else but for me. Tho I had the right attitude and all of the rigth reasons, the 'Just Because It Is For Me' was nowhere in the cards. I am so use to doing stuff for everyone else, family, friends, neighbors but somehow I always seem to get lost in the shuffle. I always felt I was at the bottom of the totem pole.
This time, I made a vow for me. ME. ME. ME!! Even when I get angry and grumpy, I toss up my hands to my husband and tell him to do it himself. He is 44 and he can cook dinner, wash clothes, help w/ the kids/ homeowrk, etc. If I am going to kick butts, then I must muster all of the energy I have to kick the butts. And tho the support is here and waiting for me, this has to be my decision and my strength to do it alone. And w/ everyone here, rooting and cheering us on, that gives me a little bit more energy to fight the nicodemon that seems to plague all of us.
Life is a little bit easier when there is someone walking beside me, holding my hand, and guiding me.
*flops down on bench and drinks her coffee*
=)
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 9/21/2006
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 11
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 114
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $22
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 1 [B]Hrs:[/B] 0 [B]Mins:[/B] 4 [B]Seconds:[/B] 22
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Quit Meter
$40,710.74
Amount Saved
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Quit Meter
Days: 478
Hours: 10
Minutes: 29
Seconds: 8
Life Gained
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3616
Smoke Free Days
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83,168
Cigarettes Not Smoked
