At this moment I am so angry and hurt at the same time. I haven't had a smoke in 11 days, and I chew toffees or toothpicks when the craving is there. My cravings have not been so bad the last few days but that is because I keep myself busy. Today, before my husband went to work, I was chewing on a toffee when my wonderful husband told me "jy raak lekker dik ne" in english that means "you are getting fat hey". Now I know I do not have a beautiful body and I know all to well that I am overweighted in other words fat but dammit why won't he let me handle one problem at a time. Once I am 1 month smoke free I can start on a strict regime of dieting and exercising. But after what he said I so much wanted to grab a smoke and tell him to go f**k himself!! Instead I'm sitting infront of my computer crying my eyes out while I am typing. Is quitting smoking really worth all this aggrivation? I can't think of one good reason to carry on not smoking. I started this program so I could breath better and not run for my asthma pump each morning and to prove to myself I could accomplish this. Now I'm thinking to hell with it all if it means all I going to get from him is critisism. The worst part is I don't have a cigarette in the house and I can't go to the shop because my cars battery is flat and we live way out of town so walking there is out of the question. I just feel so... aaarg I can't even find the right word! Thanks for listening, thanks for the support, and to my 'very supportive hubby' I will not smoke and I will lose all the weight, what is your excuse??
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 8/2/2006
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 11
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 452
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $352
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 0 [B]Hrs:[/B] 21 [B]Mins:[/B] 51 [B]Seconds:[/B] 19