Chewie, my husband, came home at 2:15 to check up on me and see if I was staying on schedule. He is a control freak and doesn't think that I manage my time well because I watch tv and use the computer. Well, when he came home is time that Nico, our 2 year old, takes a nap and he woke him up stayed for less than 5 minutes and left (after he made a point of saying that he was going to disconect the tv). I was folding laundry when he got here. Well, Nico never took a nap and has been a terror because of it.
I called Chewie and told him that I was really angry because he just came to disrupt us and now I can't do what I normally do when Nico sleeps. I can't clean the bathroom bacause he wants to get into every thing, I can't mop because he will slip and fall, I can't fold the landry quickly because he wants to help. He wants to eat, play, and do the normal things he does but when do I get time to do the things I WANT?!
Chewie said, "You can do whatever you want to do," yeah right! What I want is to smoke, eat, sleep, watch tv. I want to be left alone and retreat into a world of my own, but I can't do that. GOD KNOWS I WANT TO AND I TRY REALLY HARD, but I can't, now can I?!
All I can think about is smoking and eating myself into a coma! These are the only two things in my life that I have control over! I feel so deprived of every thing else!
I know this isn't the place for this, but this is my life and the reasons I medicate myself w/ food and cigarettes. T.
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 5/17/2006
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 15
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 236
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $53.4
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 1 [B]Hrs:[/B] 6 [B]Mins:[/B] 22 [B]Seconds:[/B] 54
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$16,872.00
Amount Saved
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Days: 428
Hours: 21
Minutes: 18
Seconds: 27
Life Gained
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3515
Smoke Free Days
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42,180
Cigarettes Not Smoked
