You are in a good place to get yourself some help. Depression absolutely exists for so so many people.
You wrote that your feelings of depression started two years ago. Did anything happen at that time in your life that may have contributed to your feelings?
I hope that you find help here. There isn't a lot of activity on these forums, but there are a few of us who log in regularly to post and to support each other. Keep checking in, read through the lessons, and don't be afraid to start new conversations. Writing about what I'm feeling has been a big help to me.
Hugs,
Super Girl