I am several weeks into the program. Recognizing the Negative Automatic Thoughts has been an eye opener and I can see where this is leading to in the program. The things is, even when I come up with rational alternatives to challenge the Core Beliefs, I don't believe them. I can understand and KNOW that I should heed the rational thoughts. In a way I do believe them. Yet, I hold on to the negative thoughts and emotions. I clutch to them tightly. Even though I know full well they are toxic to my life I cling to them. They are all I know. In my 45 years of life all I have heard is the negative from childhood. My own voice picked up from there.
