Not sure where to post this question!?
I have noticed that the mood tracker is made for Major depression and not neccesarily chronic depression with bio-polar tendencies.
Should I make another mood tracker to fill out, that rates my mood from most depressed to very high mood???
Thanks!!
I have major up and down moods. Its a lot less intense when I am busy and have a lot more going on in my life.
The state that I am in at this time in my life, it feels like piles of brick on my shoulders. I have to do a lot thinking to even get myself moving.
and that's one of the major issues, I have too much time to think. I am by myself all day and night with my thoughts.
My thoughts are mostly what brings me up and down 30 times a day it feels. ( that's when I am trying to face reality and not sleeping all day)
Other then my major hormone imbalances which I have 10 days out of the month.( extreme pms, post-mentrual and pre-ovulation) I do fall into a hopeless black hole often lately. Especially lately because of my physical and mental health and lack of being busy with work. I loose hope very easy and shut down. Sleep all day and get up few hours at night. total avoidance of life.
My brains is a complicated web of fears, phobias and deprivations. My weight. Not wanting to be seen in public because of weight gain. Religion. Fear of dieing. Fear of dieing going to hell. Not understanding God in time to be saved. Not fitting in. afraid of never feeling truly accepted. Feeling Lonely. Feeling assolated. Fear of being lonely forever. this list goes on. and its all jumbled up together.
I am going to stop typing now. Its not the easiest thing for me to write. I started with a simple question and went on a rant..
excuse my typos its takes so much effort to fix my writing. I think this is good enough for now to be understood.