One of the things that scares me the most is setbacks. Being off work has been great for me. I am starting to realize that when I have good days, they seem so good because of all the bad ones I have had in the last few years. Yesterday, it hit me. My life can be filled with good days. Maybe this is how people feel all the time. Everyday. I want that with every ounce of my being.
But setbacks are a natural part of the healing process. Intellectually, I get that. Emotionally, I am terrified. I feel like I have the ability to have a good day every now and then because I am off work. I have time to devote to myself and my family. I am putting myself first for the first time. But what happens in 3 weeks if I have to go back to work? How will I find the time to go to the gym, work on the program and find time for me every day. It seems impossible to me.
I went home last weekend and then my parents came to my house for four days. I have barely touched the program and feel like "me" time has vanished. Has anyone else been feeling like this?
