I figured it out...what I want. For the longest time I've been trying to find out why I am so sad all the time. What to I want to accomplish in life, why do I always feel like what I do is not enough, why I feel so unhappy even when I am so blessed with a good life. I guess what I really want is to be LOVED...for just being me. Not for what I have already done or what I am going to do. I want for once for someone to take care of me and make me feel good. Im so tired of always giving and doing and figuring things out...sooo tired. I want to relax and not feel guilty that Im relaxing. I want to sleep and not wake up every hour thinking, I should get up soon becuase I have to pick up the kids from the sitters. I want to go out shopping an not worry about how long I've been out. Im so tired of hearing "Mom". I want for someone to do something for me and not have to give or do anything back. I want to make a mistake and have someone say "its okay...i'll make it right for you". Im so tired of keeping up a facade that I am a strong, independent person when inside, Im really falling apart. Im so tired...