How are you all doing? Sorry I haven't checked in for a long time, but I have been busy trying to sort out my life. My job was depressing me senseless (shifts, constant critisism and no time for pleasurable activities) so my husband and doctor finally talked some sense into me.... and I quit. I am now trying to slowly rebuild alot of things including my relationships with my husband, parents and friends I have been neglecting. I am studying full time and just taking a break from the madness. I am doing more and more fun activities, I forgot that things can be so much fun! Stuff I have been avoiding, I suddely find myself wanting to do more of, like going out with friends and hobbies I haven't done in months. I still turn to my positive experiences diary often and this has really been instrumental to deciding I am worth more than being this unhappy. I used to take things so personally, and now I realise not everything is an attack. Sometimes people are just thoughtless or they don't mean to hurt you as much as they do. I am still working on trying to rebuild my self esteem that has been weathered by years of self judgement, but I think through this program I realised I am more in control than I thought. Thanks to everyone for helping me on my way and for being there for me when no-one else could be. But life is good right now and hopefully I'll start weaning off my meds in a few months.
