Y'know, my attorney asked me the same question I've been asking:
"Why are you going back to the same doctor and psychiatrist that messed you up the first time?"
I don't really have an answer for that. I suppose I can blame the psychiatrist at the hospital... See, he wanted to keep me there forever, but I wanted to go home. He made me promise to go see my psychiatrist in exchange for allowing me to leave. I asked him the same question. He said that it's hard to get outpatient psychiatric treatment, so if I quit my current psychiatrist, I'd have to stay in the hospital.
As far as my doctor? OK. He's been a tinge uncooperative. I told him what they told me at the hospital and he froze up on me... then I went to see him yesterday and he's wanting to write me all the same old scripts again. Dawg! I'm really in a mess.
Speaking of messes... I'm going to have to go to jail. I sure hope I don't have to stay in there for long. I'm trying really hard not to get depressed about it too.
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