I have had a setback, I'm hoping a bump in the road. I was at a social gathering, and I have a friend there who pulled me in to join this group (we read essays and meet weekly to discuss them) thins is the friend who had me committed recently, and the friendship has been stressed as one could imagine. At one point the conversation turned to something that triggered sadness over the loss of my adoption of a son. I have been very down since then, and feel little support from my friend, I'm told that I need to let him know when I am feeling like I need him, but I feel ashamed, and afraid most of the time. I want a friend to just check in with me sometimes, and I suppose I should make that clearer. I have sank from feeling a 4 back to an 8 or 9.
I just feel so adrift sometimes. ugh.
