Hi, believe it or not, I am a very depressed mind-body fitness instructor. Despite my apparent illness I work with people of all types on a physical and energetic (Chi) level for a living. I love what the work I teach does for my own body and mental well-being and sharing it with others. But for a few years now, I have been taking care of everybody but me.
Due to my boyfriend's decision for a job change, we moved and I have been cut off from my own work and the ability/equipment to work myself out. Not having my work has been the major reasoning behind my latest bought with depression and anxiety. It has been a stressful, agonising 5 months, involving lots of financial and material loss and harsh feelings between me and my boyfriend. We are working things out and getting back to the city we used to live, in order that we can both make a living and get me into some therapy.
At any rate, I do know a little bit about how exercise affects people in a physically, psychologically, and energetically. Its funny that I read this today, because I just did the same thing as you. Exercise is good for everybody psychologically speaking because it increases our energy levels and evens out our brain chemicals/activity. How our bodies feel is directly related to how we feel emotionally and vice-versa. Its great that you're working out in an attempt to feel better physically and emotionally. However, too much is too much if your body and brain aren't in that kind of shape. 2 hours of working out when you're not in the shape to do so is NOT good for you. Your body will rebel. You're just trying to feel better, you're not training for the Olympics.
Like I said, I have not had the opportunity to work myself out on the level I'm used to for several months now. I finally went down to a studio where I had hoped to find a job upon our arrival here and asked if I could rent the equipment. They actually let me use it for free. I felt so great about their generosity that I put myself through a workout much more intense than I was ready for. Ofcourse, I too felt great all day yesterday, but I'm sore as hell today and started having terrible thoughts about myself, too.
My advice now for me and for you would be that we both need to continue the working out, but at a steady pac