My doctor recently moved me from Lexapro to Welbutrin because the Lexapro was making me to tired and lethargic. Unfortunately Welbutrin didn't work because it made me sick as a dog. I'm now going off of it cold turkey, and doctor is now prescribing Effexor. I'm terrified to take that because I've read the effects of coming off of it are so terrible. I've decided it's time to see a psychiatrist because my doctor is limited in her knowledge of depression meds. Unfortunately, it may be weeks until I can get an appt. with a shrink in my insurance network (can't afford out of pocket).
My husband is offering ZERO support with this unfortunate setback, and I am SO hurt and SO angry and feeling SO lonely and alone that I'm ready to walk out the door and tell him it's over. The ONLY thing stopping me is our 5yo daughter, who is the light of my life and the ONLY thing keeping me going when my husband turns his back on me. My husband has many years of pent up anger and resentment over my depression and my inability to "cure" or "fix" it despite MUCH trying with therapy and meds. I do understand how he feels, but at the same time I need him to TRY to put that aside to show me he still cares and loves me. He won't. Then the mother****er has the nerve to tell me that he think I love HIM "conditionally", after the other day he told me that the he realizes the vow "for better or for worse" doesn't mean anything to him anymore cuz now that we're in the "worst" he doesn't like it. Talk about conditional love! His current method of showing me how much he cares is by completely ignoring me. Why is he mad? Well, we had tickets to a Depeche Mode concert tonight, but I'm so ill from the Welbutrin we can't go. He promised me he wasn't angry and that he understood, but now the truth is coming out.
I'm brokenhearted, physically ill, emotionally drained, and don't know where to turn.
Martha
