I am a thirty-seven year old SAHM Mom of three boys (aged 5 and under) and have been diagnosed with BPD and PTSD and a whole bunch of other lovely inter-related depression dx's. I am on Effexor (187.5mg/dm) in the morning and Risperdal (7.5mg), Novo Trazodone (150mg) and Xanax to help me sleep at night. I am seeing a Psychologist on a very regular basis but am struggling terribly right now. I was recently sexually assaulted (raped, hard to say it) by an ex-boyfriend and it's brought me down to a terrible place in my life. I had been making some good progress and this set back has just thrown my life into a loop.
I have made several suicide attempts in the past and the idea has trickled into my head in the most recent weeks. I am also a cutter and with recent events took that up again but I managed to not cut myself this week.
I guess I just feel very lonely and it's very difficult to find someone who can understand the lost and isolated feeling that all this brings into your life.
I hope to try and join this community and bring something worthwhile of myself to you.
Thanks,
D
