hey batty,
i left my therapist's office feeling very down. he was not at his best. it was obvious he was stressed out, overworked, and to me it just felt like he wanted the hour to get over with. of course, i immediately take that to the extreme...he doesn't care, i'm just taking up his time, etc. etc. etc. none of which are true. he was just having an off day. but it seems like there's no gray area with me. one small insignificant thing can send me to the bottom.
i know how you feel regarding your job. but you could look at it another way. obviously the people who have decided you should meet with the inspectors think you are smart enough and competent enough to handle it. i don't know if this helps but try to remember that inspectors are just bureaucrats whose job it is to find fault with everything. they aren't necessarily any smarter than anyone else, they are just more observant and detail-oriented. if they find something wrong, don't take it personally, it's just their job. it's what they do, their little place in the world.
i wish i had answers for you but i don't. i'm afraid i'm not very inspirational today.
