freefall
i am also on meds for bipolar. let me tell you, it was MONTHS before that got the combonation of meds right, or as right as they can be. i was miserable and was feeling suicidal. the meds they had me on were horrible. they kept me feeling like a zombie and yes i was in that deep dark hole you speak of. it was especially hard since i am a single parent. i eventually switched my pdoc. the one i have now is great and seems to really get what i am saying. is there anyway you can get a second opinion? do you see a therapist? also may i ask what meds you take? i take depoke for bipolar. i exhibit other symptoms also, wondering if you do. like the others said, you are not alone. we are all here for you. take care. one moment at a time.
