My goodness, anyone would be overwhelmed with that load to carry!
It's a cliche but the old saying "take care of yourself or you will not be able to take care of anyone else" certainly applies to you I think.
I know it's hard to say "no" to your relatives but if they actually care about you, they should get over any disappoint me they feel.
All I can say is to hang in there which sounds pretty lame under the circumstances. Take care of yourself!
I am so freaked out right now. Husband leaves on Monday for 12 days at sea. Sister who is bi-polar calling everyday saying she can't take anymore! I have a autistic/mentally retarded daughter and she is a great kid but she is having a really hard time ajusting to her new school hours(they are much earlier). Still homeschooling my oldest. Need to find a job but at the thought it gives me a panic attack. Went to the doctor and am starting effexor xr for the depression and anxiety but she wouldn't listen that I had taken before and started me on lowest dose which I know will not work and she referred me to psych at the hospital but my husband still has not fixed our insurance and he leaves Monday so I will have to somehow come up with the energy to do that (it is an hrs drive to where we have to go). And now my aunt and uncle want me to come see them. My relationship with them is difficult. For a long time we did not speak. Then a couple of yrs ago my grandmother passed away. They raised me because my parents are gone. There is the side that so craves being with my family but then there is the side that remembers all the awful stuff they did to me. Just talking on the phone about the visit makes me feel panicky but then it depresses me even more to not see them. Double edged sword huh? I am sleeping all day when my daughter is in school (I give my son his assignments for his schoolwork and then go to bed then I am up all night. I feel so cranky and sad and tired. This next two weeks are gonna be a nightmare.
