Ashley, Go back to the ER and tell these nurses, doctors and social workers that you would like to admit yourself if this is what you want. Tell them that you were sent home and are afraid of what may happen to you. This support group is here to support you. However, we are not able to assist you when you are in a crisis situation. What we can do is tell you to get help. This help is for to go back to the emergency room or call your doctor and ask him/her to admit you. Please undersatnd that we are not trying to be mean. We want what is best for you at this time. We hope you find the help you need! Respectfully, Melanie _______________________________________ The Depression Center Support Team

I am feeling really in danger tonight. So I went to the emergency room.. I waited forever..and they had me change clothes and all that stuff...Then the social worker came in and asked about all my history and stuff. I told her how I have been to doctors and inpatient and done the whole medication thing. She wondered what I thought putting me inpatient was going to do for me, since I have done it before and it hasn't worked. I told her I didn't know. She then said I needed to keep trying and try a doctor and medication again. She said she could tell I wasn't willing to except that I could possably get better...she said I seemed completley without hope. Heres what I dont understand... Inpatient didn't work in the past...so she said it was pointless to put me there, she kept saying "been there done that" well is it pointless to keep me safe?? But yet I have tried dozens of doctors and medicines and she thought I should keep doing that, even though it hadn't worked in the past? The other thing she kept doing was going back and forth..."you know what? I am going to admit you" and then she would say "you know what I am going to send you home" Back and forth over and over...you'd think if she was that much on the fence she would choose the safe choice and keep me there right?? She even told my fiance on the way out to watch me and stay up all night and never let me be alone, even for a second....Hes not trained to do that.....not like they are. Why would she say that if I was safe enough to leave? I could take a bottle of pills and go "lay down for a rest" and he would just think I was tired and sleepy... Its so rediculus...she was just some stupid blond *****. I finally got up the nerve to take a step towards health and this is what I get... She gave me the number of a doctor to call in the morning..and I told her I would never call because I am scared of using the phone that is if I was even alive in the morning...but I guess she doesn't care. My personal story actually made her cry too... And I told her I was sick of trying and should just end it and she was like "no you need to keep trying" so I said "would you? If you had been through everything I had, would you keep trying?" and she said "oh yes of course" like my