Hi,
I noticed that every moderator I have talked to has told me to seek proffessional help. The thing is I have done that..over and over and over again. I have been doing that since I was little.
Its not that I dont want to get better...I really do. But I dont think I can.
I honestly think I have gotten to a point where seeking proffesional help is just a temporary band aid fix.
Unless someone knows some great miraculous place I can go, or some wonderful doctor that is a miracle worker...I just dont think theres anything that can help me.
I meen I have seen some of the very best doctors in the country. Both women and men, I have tried alternative medical treatment. I have tried support groups. One on one counsling, family counsling back when I was a kid.
I have tried all sorts of meds. I've kept a journal, I've seen shrinks once a week, once a day, once a month. I have changed therapists several times, trying to find the best.
I meen I went to a school for kids with depression that held group therapy and one on one counsaling several times a day..this place was over a thousand dollars a day. Everyone there, the teachers,counslors,even the receptionist and gym teacher all had degrees in psycology. I went there for years and ultimatley graduated high school from there.
I just dont think their are any resources left for me.
I have tried SO hard...
anyway thanks, but unless anyone can recomend someone really different, or something different..
I think its just a matter of time...I meen how long can someone live with depression before they try and follow through with suicide?
-ash
