Hi,
My name is ashley. I have been diagnosed with depression since I was in 6th grade. I was about 12 I think. I am 27 now. I have been in and out of the mental hospital for suicide 7 times...my last visit was for over three months.
The reason why I am here is because I need to find a doctor. I am not doing very well. See in the past my Dad always took care of finding a doctor for me, and basically took care of everything..but my fiance and I moved far away and he cant really do that for me living so far away as he does now. I have seen a tun of therapists and shrinks in my life...I actually dropped out of public school and went to a school for kids with depression and suicidal tendences..when I was in high school.
I just want to find a decent doctor...someone who can precribe medication and maybe some counseling...someone whos up for a challenge..
I have tried everything(except shock therapy, which if it works I will do it)..I just feel like as time goes by I slip further and further into depression and I just dont like where things are going..to be honest I am scared I am going to loose control... I am honestly reaching the point where I dont care about anything anymore...in fact its been like this for probably 6 months now. I am bipolar...but I have seen so many doctors..I have dozens of different diagnosis.
I dont work...in fact I have never really had a job for more than three months. I dont like leaving my apartment...
Even laundry and cooking, cleaning...simple stuff is next to impossable for me...my fiance does everything...and I am really clingy when it comes to him..I am always wanting him to spend time with me, anything to get my mind off everything else.
anyway I just want to find a decent doctor in the north texas area and I dont know where to start or even how to choose..
thanks,
ashley
