Why is it that we feel so alone when there are so many poeple suffering out there. It makes me so angry. I spent an evening at my in-laws last night, and we saw an item on TV about some women suffering from mental illness. My father - in - law, who does not know I suffer from depression, proceeded to talk about how these "selfish" people need a "kick up the bum". He truly believes this is a choice. When I got home, I cried and cried. It's like there is a dark secret inside me,and if anyone (aside from my family and close friends) find out, they will never look at me the same again.
I live in Australia, and in the paper over the weekend there was an article on a 15 year old girl who suffered depression. Snippits of her diary were displayed in the article, an insight into her personal torture. She suffered long and hard, under 24hr surveilance by her mother. Her psych, guided by deliberate misinformation from this child, told her mother that she was now stable - stop watching her all the time. That night the girl took her own life. A CHILD! That makes me so mad, and strips a lot of hope away from my heart. I am crying as I type this. What a wicked waste of a wonderful spirit, with so much to offer.
WHY IS THIS ILLNESS NOT UNDERSTOOD? NOT ACCEPTED? WHY DO WE HAVE TO BE SO ASHAMED?
Children as young as four are diagnosed with depression and put on medication - a child of that age should know nothing but joy and wonder. What is going on in this world?
Love one another. Love you children, your partner, everyone. Let's not let any more people slip through the cracks - it is a crime to lose any lives to this illness, and purely devastating to lose any more of our children.
I feel angry, hurt, tired and so vulnerable, but I will be stronger one day. If you feel the same, just know that my thoughts are with you; if you feel alone, know that you are not; and if you feel desparate, turn to someone for help. You have too much to offer this world to waste.
Joy, best wishes and love be with you.
Miss J
