Hang in there...don't let the Devil get you down. Maybe you will find out that the medication was wrong, or that you are bi-polar. It sounds like it could be either. If it is, I guess the best one to tell you is the doctor. Keep telling him, what is going through your mind just as you put down on your note, and maybe he will be able to help you better. When you can't get suicide out of your mind, try to change the channel and say "I will never give in!" Your best friend in the universe is on your side! Or go to the nearest hospital and tell them....
