Jeff,
I do not know how you talk to people, but your posts do not sound whiny or impotent. On the contrary, to me it seems that you are actually doing great and I think you should be much more appreciative of yourself. Like I said, I am off the medication, but only as long as I stay on the treadmill. Aerobic activity every other day is indeed the best way to have a healthy functioning mind. I aim for 5 times a week, but every other day is also enough to keep me balanced. It is one of the best things you can do for yourself. Okay than, there is nothing wrong with being a s***yard laborer, but I do understand that you may not feel fullfilled doing it. In time a lot of your past achievements will come back to you and I, for one, much more appreciate a s***yard worker than someone who has not job and is not trying, feels sorry for himself and sits on the couch. At least you are out there!!!!!! Do not look at other people's careers, houses, cars.....they mean nothing. Often people are getting sooo caught up in achieving more and better, but with that along comes the stress, the added responsibilities and the saveguaring, which all costs time and more money. To me that is an endless, meaningless circle which often leads to the heart that does not carry anything inside. I used to have a great career, I was good at it, made good money, had a car to match my wonderful succes, yet everytime I went home my heart felt empty and my resources were depleted. Now I am a mother and a housewife, I take care of my two kids, my 8 cats and my two dogs, my house and my yard. I still put in my best effort (like I did at work), no one is applauding for me or is looking at me as if I have it made, but you know...........every night I go to bed, I feel content and fullfilled. When I am ready, I will pick up a career that I truly like, until then, I am happy with what is. Happiness is overrated anyway........to me happiness comes as small feelings, like little islands throughout the day. I strive for contentment and nothing material can give you that. So, be a s***yard laborer for a while, see what is out there, give it the best you have, do it with all your heart and try to feel content when you come back home and your little girl is waiting for you. Play a little. Life does not have