Bytchly,
Welcome to the Depression Center. It sounds horrible what you and your family went through. I would suggest that you see your family Doctor, perhaps they can refer you to someone that you can talk too. With regards to having a relationship with your father, that is something you will have to decide. Just remember to keep posting on the site, we are here for you. Also, make use of the tools on the left of your screen, take the depression test and bring the results with you to the Doctor.
Susanne