Hey. I know how you feel. Have exactly the same. Panic attacks, agophobia, feeling detached. Everyday I would wake up in a panic. My sleep is severely impaired (keep waking up panicking). But trust me youll get better. Ive said this in other posts but ive had them, then they disappear completely for decades until my next major meltdown. For me last year it triggered again after this woman at work was bullying me and forced me to quit. It was months of enormous stress and being subjected to her verbal abuse and then one day I had a major panic attack and then my life changes in the most restrictive way. But it will get better. What goes up must come down and anxiety is no different. Just like you I do not take medication and never will.