I have this issue when making friends. I usually end up screwing things up with the very people I admire the most. I tend to anticipate the moment I'll do the wrong thing to cause a friend to reject me. I don't understand how it happens, but usually, in every case, there is a misunderstandineg either on my part or their part. Andd instead of working on untangling the misunderstanding, I get so anxious that I actually make things worse, pushing people farther away. I tend to beg the friend for the friendship, rather than focus on fixing the issue that caused the misunderstanding. I almost feel like I don't know how to be a good friend. Like I never properly learned. I don't want this to keep happening!! Maybe it's because I feel like I don't bring value to a friendship. I don't know. I still have not discovered my core belief that causes this issue. It causes great pain and intense because I love people and need them in my life. Sorry...I'm long winded here. But does anyone else have this very same problem? I feel stuck with this issue and I've been stuck on it for a very, very long time.
