Today my mother visited me at my house and wake me up at 13:30 PM. If wasn´t she may be I continue in bed. Being in bed is like avoiding life, I feel confortable there.
I don´t feel motivation for being up all day. I run my own business, but I don´t open it in the morning. This is causing me money problems. I´m not sad, I´m with lack of motivation, don´t enjoy my job, because I know when I finished it, I´ll be alone at my home, a lot of silent there.
I feel joy when I´m with friends, at a dinner for example. I´m trying a lot of ways to have friends I like, but I continue being alone.
Last 10 years I´ve been focused running my own business, I had sucess. When I worked I don´t thinked in my life, but I turned like a computer machine, with no feelings or thoughts, just obsessed with work. Now I don´t wan´t to continue doing that, but I see my life is empty, with a lot of silence around me.