Today I actually feel much better....that seems to be the way it is right now with me, I'll be really down and hurting for a few days. then I'll feel much better for a day or 2, then back to feeling really down. This morning I took my dog out for walk without having to fight myself on it which was great, but I know I will soon lose the motivation and it will become a terrible struggle again. I know that I will always feel better after being outside but it's so hard to push myself to do it regardless. Even with something as simple as making my bed....some days I just don't feel like doing it, even though I know I'll be happier when I come later and see that it's done.