So I got organized at work, picked up my son around 2:30pm, came home and cleaned out my car. I started my downhill slide into depression around October, and hadn't cleaned my car since then. There seriously could have been a missing person in there and I wouldn't have known it. Yuck. But also there was really important papers I need in there for this project so it had to be done.
3 hours of sorting and tossing, and no papers. I know exactly where they were (even given the mess), and I've looked in every possible nook and cranny. These papers are so important that I might even get fired for this (financial stuff). So I'm trying really hard not to panic and project doom and gloom into the future, but it's hard not to. This was the only thing that's been asked of me, and I don't have the papers I need to do it.
There's nothing I can do but keep looking, but if I can't find them by tomorrow afternoon, I'm going to have to call my supervisor and find out what the implications are. Wish me luck. If any of you are psychic, please let me know where they are!
I'm pretty exhausted after this day, and this setback isn't helping. It's a little sucky that I worked so hard to organize my life so that it would work better, and have hit a big roadblock. I'm hoping it's not a job stopping roadblock. I can't go there in my mind. It's not healthy for me to go there. I'm just going to try and hang in there and deal with it as it comes. But I'm on a major treasure hunt right now.
The other place I don't want to go to, but can't help going to, is that I had those papers in my briefcase which I take to my domestic violence classes. The envelope looked like it was full of money (but it wasn't). I'm really hoping it wasn't stolen.
okay.... just processing. Thanks for listening. A bit stressed here.
deb