Hi Everyone:
How is everyone doing, I hope fine. I had a setback last week, but I am going
to take time to relax/rest and reflect and take care of windsy. Windsy was just
exhausted and needed recharging of batteries, and didn't realize it. Thanks for
all the encouragement and support, I appreciate that so much. My school has
been very supportive, and has said I will always have a job at this school.
I have questions I would like answered, and I am going to organizations this
week that can help me. My family is starting to be more supportive, and
they are willing to support me. Also, I have this site, which I thank you for
so much. My shrink is supportive to the idea of my family meeting with him
and me in December. They want to help me but they don't know how, as
there was "no problem" in their eyes, now it is different.
I am going to do my own research, and look for alternatives for me.
I have started, and I am going to my city's mental health assoc this
week. This is what I would hope the agency would have done, before
they terminated therapy. I guess everyone makes mistakes and looks
in hindsight, as my pdoc wishes we did things differently.
I am beginning to understand that things happen for a reason. I found
that reason, my pdoc will be working with me more, and I will find an
experienced therapist. I am on the road to recovery from depression,
and I am beginning to believe it is okay to reach out to resources to
say "I need help". I am being proactive in my therapy care.
I have done 2 goals in the next 3 weeks and I broke it all down, just like
I learned on this site & cbt. I also am going to use my thought records
and figure out my distortions and try to change my way of thinking.
Incidentally, my shrink was out of town, but I sent him an email. He was
very nice and understanding, we tried something that helped so much.
I see him Nov 12/09, BUT in January he is going to South Africa for 4
months. I will have supports put in place before he goes, and I will
pay attention more to warning signs. Also, I hope to have a new
therapist by then, and if not, I will always be okay. I know I am
not alone, as I have people that care like this site.
I have struggled with having depression, and being recognized as
a person with a mental illness. Do other members have the same shame
& guilt, because we have depression b/c of an imbalance of chemical
in our brain. I am going to start a new thread. Have a great week
moderators, and members and think positively as it is the negative
thoughts that get us into trouble....Windsy