Hi gang,
As you can see from a bunch of other posts, I like to chat with others... and through that chatter I reveal a lot about myself and the situations I am facing.
so I have had a lot of progress these past few weeks! I am still stuck on session 4 in the programme. to tell you the truth I do not even remember 1 thru 4! But I am progressing.
With my anxiety, I have noticed that I have integrated several tools into my lifestyle... deep clensing breaths as soon as the anxiety sets in, pauses in thinking - this is an OCD thought, not a true evaluation of the person I am, respecting limits - esp mine!, and admitting that I have a sensitivity and that anxiety is part of my "normal" reaction.
My emotions, I now know that I am afraid. I have learned the the huge blockage of emotions was caused be a tremendous amount of childhood fear that was never expressed, named, nor dealt with. A LOT of my pain and sufferings these past 30 years has been due to this. It was a fear instilled my my parents that were ill. Now I have the strength and support to recycle this energy within to finally learn to live (emotionally) like the other hafl does...
My depression, Ok I am hopelessly confused! but this is a good starting point! It tells me that others are not the ones who know best, I am. This is my body and my life. I need to observe and educate myself and proclaime my own diagnostic after this process. Ready gang?
