Thank you for your responses. I have a difficult time with being hard on myself. I have very little self worth and find myself very critical about everything I think or do.

The information that stood out the most for me in the first lesson was unlearning my anxiety response. I am struggling to keep up on my anxious thoughts log because they happen so frequently.

As for a safety plan, there really isn't one. If it happens again the only thing I can do is go to the emergency room (and not wait three days while it gets worse because I think I'm being ridiculous or a hypochondriac).

I haven't been doing so well because my daughter and I have been sick. Her being sick and having a fever has me constantly on edge. I know it's not uncommon and colds aren't that big of a deal but I'm terrified of anything getting worse. She was premature so any little thing being wrong with her scares me and makes my anxiety sky rocket. She's almost six and a healthy kid (other than the occasional cold) but I over worry about almost every little thing.

Thank you for showing interest in how I am doing. How are you doing?

Hi! We have similar usernames :) :)

I would be very scared if that happened to me. What has your doctor told you to do if it happens again? I would want to make sure I had a safety plan in place otherwise I would always be planning out the safety plan in my head. I lose sleep sometimes if I don't have a plan in place for worst case scenarios.

I don't think you should be so hard on yourself for having panic over this. You sound brave to me. I probably would be worse off then you if it happened to me. I over react a lot with health stuff tho. You should have seen me the other month when I had a toe infection hahahaha

Anyways, I want to hear how you are doing so please update when you get a chance.

Welcome Kitty93!

Thank you for sharing how panic is impacting you. I am so sorry to hear about your experience with a perforated esophagus, That sounds confusing and scary. I think many people would be extremely anxious after having something like that happen. Please do not feel like a failure for being human. It makes sense that your anxiety and depression would be triggered by an event like this. I think it is amazing that you are being proactive and taking steps to feel better. That takes courage, initiative and intelligence, certainly not a failure.

I think the program will be a big help to you. Begin at session 1 of the Anxiety program and take your time working through each session. Taking about a week for each session is recommended. If you have any questions or comments please let us know. It is great to see you have already completed the first session. Nice work! What information stood out to you the most during that session?

Hope to read more from you soon,

Ashley

Im new here and just wanted to tell a bit about myself. I've struggled with anxiety and depression most of my life. Almost two years ago I had a perforated esophagus. The doctors couldn't tell me why it happened or how it healed itself. Since then I've struggled with almost daily panic, terrified it will somehow happen again. If I even slightly feel any discomfort or trouble breathing I think it's happening again. It has made my daily life difficult. I'm a mother and a wife and I feel like a failure because I can't seem to cope with this event and the panic that has followed. I want to be more positive and not worry about this happening again every day. I really hope this site can help, along with the other steps I've taken to manage it.