Cardio Tech.
This is similar to an exposure I had to do and you can not believe the relief that came after. Because I did it.
When I applied for a disability pension it was stalled and I went back to work when my savings were gone and I had four thousand on my Visa. It wasn't much of a job and it was physically hard but I had no choice. But since I went to work I no longer qualified even though I did by their standards. It took four Doctors and a year and one hell of a lot of pain killers but I finally got recognized. In the mean time I did some damage which I'm slowly repairing. But the relief when it was over was phenomenal. It showed me that I could do anything if I put my mind to it. It also surprised me. I still have the coping skills I developed and some times need but for the most part I am fine. (recovered)
My point is that I know you are stronger than you think and I know you will find a way to get through this and come out the other end better than you are now for proving it. Never give in, never let it win.
And Vincenza is right you can focus on a few good things starting with the fact that when this is over you will have joined the ranks of those of us that have won. A very positive act to smooth the way to continue winning.
There are a number of coping skills and distractions you can use that will not interfere with your performance such as positive mantras to keep you in the right frame of mind. Breathing exercises, Counting as a distraction. Concentrating on what you will do when the day is over, even if you are too tired and wrung out to do them.
And I will not for a minute play down what you are going to go through, it will be tough. All I can say is that I won and so can you. And I will be here counting the days with you. But it will be easier if you can find the time to post, no matter how horrible it seems we are here to share your journey. We are support even if we are silent support. Let us know how it goes, let us share so you are not alone.
Davit.
I think I broke a few rules but it is my opinion and experience so I said it.