Keeping my anxiety from escalating into panic attacks is something I battle with daily. I take the bus to work as I don't like to be in control of a car and have to sit in traffic, so I carefully design my bus times so that not too many people are on the bus with me, and it's becoming a problem. I hate this avoidance thing and a few times I have faced my anxiety and let it pass; I felt really proud o f myself. However, yesterday I was sitting in the bus waiting to go when the driver decided to go for a bathroom break I guess, and he locked the door while he was gone. I did get through it, but the feeling of out of control anxiety was really hard to deal with; now I find myself watching the driver at ever stop....ready to bolt out the door if he does. I also sit in the very front seat in case the bus gets packed to standing room and I either get off at the next stop of feel okay being in the front.
I feel like this is spoiling my life and was wondering if anyone else has similar feelings on public transport.
