You have not let us down at all! We are here for you through thick and thin. You do not have to worry about that!
I am sorry you are having so much trouble sleeping. That can be extremely challenging. Good for you for still going to group and posting here. That takes a lot of strength. You keep fighting and posting; we are listening.
Well today was especially difficult, my amount of sleep has been diminishing during the week ...I've worked hard all week, I thought and even though last night I managed to do the breathing exercises and get a few hours , it finally took it's toll. My doctor had given me an anti-histamine ( atarax ) to help me sleep on the 8th but I had a reaction to it and ended up extremely agitated...so I threw it out and tried to go it on my own. Unfortunately, that just aggravated the situation.
I called him today and went to see him, we will try something else so I can at least get sleep for a week or so, I just can't cope with it all this tired. I'm afraid I was a real basket case at group today... I felt awful and I just couldn't stop crying. In a way I feel bad about needing help in this manner but I will keep on with my efforts to make an improvement for myself.
Hope I haven't let you guys down...you've been so supportive and I don't want to lose that.
