You do not need luck. It sounds like you have lots of reasons to stay sober today. That all we have to do is stay sober for one day. If you can stay sober today do the same thing tomorrow. The person I had to change for was me, I hated myself. People that love you will see the change and so will you. When I have hard days, I look to reading, talking with others like me (this site and meetings). I do not fear reaching out to others with the same issues as me, two drunks helping eachother stay sober TODAY.